Father to a 12, almost 13 year old girl

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(this is a late night rant/post. It will probably ramble, but in the end I hope what I’m asking makes sense.)

10 years ago, I was a fairly content young man looking for someone to call my own. Well, I found her. Laurie is, in every way, my perfect woman, and best friend. There was, however a catch… her (at the time) 6 year old girl, Lizzie.

Being a real man, I didn’t let the potential of being a father to a full grown child stop me. Hell, if my father could do it with me, then I could certainly suck it up and do it for Lizzie. I would become this child’s father.

Lizzie’s biological father was a complete disaster. He treated Laurie like he would treat a bill collector. Any attempts to get child support out of him were rebuffed, leaving her to raise Liz on her own.

So, here I am, walking into this situation, no parental experience at all, but tons of memories about how my father raised me.

Jump forward to 2010 and here we are. I’ve officially adopted Lizzie as my own. She is my daughter. I will do anything to keep her safe and sound. I will buy a shotgun and chase teenage punks off of my porch if I have to. She’s my little girl now.

Soon, Lizzie’s last name will be finally changed, and around easter the will officially become a Catholic at my mother’s church. She’s a straight A student with a lot going for her. She’s outgoing, smart as hell, and quite funny.

So, days like today are the ones that bother me.

She’s becoming entitled, and I cannot stand it. All I want from her is to learn to take no for an answer, and try to remember that we love her and want her to be happy. I mean, what other 12 year old girls do you know of that get their dad’s old big screen tv?

She’s got her TV, her ipod, cell phone, shelf-stereo, computer, Wii… yes, I’ve spoiled her. I spoiled her because on a certain level she deserves the luxuries that she has. She continuously brings home straight A’s and fantastic reports from her teachers. She was on the winning academic bowl team last year, and I got to watch them practice and play. I couldn’t have been more proud. And, this year, she is on the Middle School Cheer-leading team, which is yet ANOTHER accomplishment that I’m simply amazed with.

All good right?

My problem is, and maybe someone can help me with this… my problem with the whole situation is that she’s developed an attitude of entitlement. She thinks that if she asks for something, she’ll get it. If she doesn’t get it, then were the meanest parents in the world, according to he facebook page.

So, how do I fix this issue? How do I remind her that we are her parents and that we run the house? How do I teach her to respect us and love us and communicate with us? You know the conversations… “How was school?” “Good” and then goes into her room to do her homework.

She’s simply too young for me to give up on her now. I want my baby girl back, not the bratty teenager that she’s becoming.

I hope there is something I can do about it, and I hope some of you might be able to offer me some advice

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Doctor Who – The City that Burns (pt 1)

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Chapter One

Atlanta, GA – November 9th 1864

General William Sherman stepped out of the Atlanta City Hall and took a deep breath. He hoisted his saber belt a bit higher on his waist and walked onto the muddy road. All around him, the sounds of night could be heard echoing slightly through the buildings, occasionally broken by laughter inside of one of the nearby taverns. Stopping for a moment in the street, Sherman looked up at the sky, admiring the constellations.

The quiet of the sleeping city was reflected by the late night sky. The stars were bright and the few clouds he could see broke the dim light up as they passed. As if on cue, a gentle fall breeze sent a chill down his neck, causing him to close his eyes a moment, relishing in the feeling. It was small moments like this, when the war seemed so far away, that it felt like God was having a private conversation with him. As a General in Grant’s army, guilt was often a companion in Sherman’s travels, and the past few days were no different. Small moments like this were a bittersweet gift.

Two days from now, Sherman’s forces would be cutting the telegraph wires out of Atlanta and setting blaze to most of the city. He’d already dispatched his letter to Mayor Calhoun, and while he had made it clear that parts of Atlanta would burn, he had agreed to leave the churches, residences and a few essential buildings intact. The rest, however, would be destroyed before his army continued their march to the sea. Sherman knew that this would be seen as another example of his tyrannical nature, but he also knew that it help the North with the war and help save the country from itself. The greater good often led to the hardest choices, and his public image was not high on his list of concerns.

Snapping himself out of his reflection, Sherman continued walking toward the stables, planning on a relaxing ride around town to check on the perimeter stations. His evening ritual was well known amongst his men, and he found that it was a very efficient way of ensuring discipline. Soon though, they would have to familiarize themselves with a new routine: marching to the coast.

As Sherman came upon the stable, he was distracted by an object in the sky moving with incredible speed. At first glance, it appeared to be a shooting star, but suddenly it made a sharp turn toward him, landing soundlessly in woods behind the buildings. He hesitated for a moment, but then drew himself up, placed his hand on his saber and marched around the building.

Rounding the corner, the General could detect a sickly red glow from the trees ahead. The horses were restless, the air smelled of sulfur and he could hear an oddly disturbing sound ahead. Pausing to make it out, the General could only compare it to the sound a boot made when being pulled out of mud. The glow was beginning to make his stomach turn, but cowardice was not in his nature. Sherman steeled himself and stepped past the tree line, toward the disturbance.

About thirty feet into the woods, Sherman came upon a small clearing and found what appeared to be a glowing puddle of red mud. The sulfur smell was almost unbearable now, and the ambient light seemed as though it was being sucked into the area in front of him. The longer he stared at the goo on the ground, the more he wished that he had brought some of his soldiers. Then, without warning, he felt as if his limbs were weighing him down, keeping him fastened to the spot.

When he was a child, William Sherman would be scared of the slightest sounds in his house. The wind rustling the leaves, the floorboards expanding and contracting, the rain pelting the roof would all keep him awake at night, staring at the dark. Now though, he was an adult, and had chased away any such terrors. So, when the puddle of glowing red ooze began to bubble and rise in front of him, General Sherman legitimately felt reality around him shatter.

“This must be the beginning of madness,” he whispered hoarsely to himself, his voice barely audible. He could feel his arms grow heavier, and his hand fell away from his saber to rest at his side. With his eyes wide and unblinking, he felt a sharp pain running through his entire body, starting in his head and pulsing down to his feet. Sherman wanted to scream in agony and run back into the streets to call for reinforcements, but it was too late. Somehow he knew that he was now a prisoner of the ooze, and that no matter what he tried, the end result would be the same.

The ooze bubbled up further and generated heat comparable to that of a blacksmith’s forge. It rose higher and began to turn in on itself, almost as if it was experimenting, trying to find the perfect form. The glow became brighter, turning from a red glow to a burning yellow and then finally white. Tendrils of energy began extending toward the General, probing and plucking at his skin, eventually wrapping around him completely, shocking him with bolts of electricity.

Slowly, the world seemed to grow dark and Sherman felts his eyes roll back as darkness took hold of him. In the moment before he blacked out, General William Sherman watched as the ooze solidified and took its final form. In front of him, where there was once a mysterious glowing red ooze, stood his doppelganger. And with that, General William Sherman fell into a deep coma, his duplicate free to take his place.

The Ooze looked down at General Sherman and sneered. The time and place was all wrong. It looked down at its newly formed hand and adjusted the palm to display the current galactic coordinates. The surface of its hand shifted slightly and became translucent, displaying several numbers that pinpointed the Ooze’s exact position in time and space.

“The planet Earth? This is unacceptable,” the Ooze declared, looking toward the glowing lights of Atlanta. Tilting its head to the side, the Ooze looked back down at its hand and began analyzing the temporal phase energy left in its system. With a disgusted sigh, the Ooze clenched its hand and stepped over General Sherman’s body, a plan already forming.

“Atlanta will burn, Sherman, do not worry,” the Ooze said to human lying helpless on the ground. “Atlanta will burn.”

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Welcome Back!

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It’s been a while, and the blog has been completely re-tasked.  While I will still use it to post stories, it will no longer strictly be about my World of Warcraft characters.  Instead, I will have fan-fictions about Doctor Who, and other short stories focusing on my original character, Lilith.

I hope you enjoy some of the things I post, but if you don’t, I completely understand.

Regards,

Tillman

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And the Dead Shall Rise

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She stood slowly, her fist still clenched tightly around the hilt of her sword, its blade tip stuck into the ground as used it for leverage.  She could feel everything in her body changing and shifting.  It was almost as if her body was becoming infused with a bitter cold, threatening to shatter her apart at any moment.

Once on her feet, she stood, feeling her body still shifting slightly, muscles forming, tightening. She could almost hear the blood in her veins stop flowing as the sound of her own heart stopped. 

Her eyes opened, everything around her blurry and out of focus.  She blinked several times, shaking her head slightly as she tried to force her eyesight to return.  Slowly, with some great effort, images began to form.  Everything around her was lackluster in color. Nothing stood out.  It was as if all the life of the world had been sucked out and replaced with a bland, cold artificiality.

Finally, she looked ahead, her eyes taking in the sight before her.  Standing there, in his dead splendor was Arthas, the Lich King.  His eyes glowed from beneath his helm as he studied her.

“Welcome, Deadian, Death Knight of Arthas,” he spoke, his hand extending out toward her.

Deadian stood for a moment, then walked forward, her hand instinctively falling into his. It was then that she knew, she would forever serve the Lich King.  He’d ripped away the illusion of vitality and infused her with the simple truth of life…

Death consumes all.

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